Today the negativity will pass me by...

Today is obviously one of those days ... When in the morning you would do anything for another second under the covers; when there are delays where you hate them the most, when most people at work are frustrated and when somehow everything goes down the drain. When you feel restless and you want to be anywhere but here. This is not that restlessness that gives you energy to do a million things at once but that sticky, dark, fussy kind that burdens you and you cannot seams to get away from it all... But this time I saw it coming. I wont let it swallow me. I am ready! And only by sensing it, the sticky creature goes away. It surprises me, how little it takes to sense it and only by that, you almost solve it or at least find a solution.

All the restlessness, which is attacking me from everywhere... Today it will go empty handed. The restlessness that turns into negativity, will not get me into their clutches! Today is the day for positivity and no one will change that!

Today negativity wont spread around. We know when the ears and heart open and when they are closed. Today I am enjoying a bath of positivity, which the Universe is enabling me.

OK that sounds too esoteric to be readable, but fundamentally it means that I'll let people jump at each others throats, let them fight and spent one another, screaming at one another and are "cynical and sarcastic." Enjoy, but you will not pull me into all that. Today I look from "sidewalk" and I'm happy because I am aware of what is going on! I am happy, despite or because of everything. I am blessed because I can feel and flow with the positive vibes.

"Keep up and you will be kept up." ~Yogi Bhajan

Today is the day for change!

Yesterday evening I was told that I always think that everybody and everyone is against me. I was completely shocked! This statement came form someone that is really dear to me and it triggered a complete blockade and an instant response "I am not like that!" I don't see myself as someone who always sees the bad side of things. On the contrary. I realise I am incredibly lucky! Instead of leaving the autopilot on and saying over and over again that I am not like that, I let emotions run through me. All the rejection, outrage, blame etc. I let everything run through me. I allowed myself to feel them, but I've also let them go. I did not blame the statement or the parson who said that. This was the kind of statement that, in the past, could trigger a fire in a moment, and the fire burned for a long time. But this time it sparked a change, but no fire.

The event was an eye opener. Among other things, it made me to look into the past. How many times have labels from outside defined us? That we are not worthy of love, that no one can live with us, we are unable to communicate, that we are resentful etc...

No matter what others speak about you, what matters is what you think about yourself! We can take them in consideration but all in all what really matters is what is in us. If people do not agree with the opinion we have of ourselves it is up to us to respond to that. Will we listen to our inner Goddess or will we listen to others? 

That defines the path you will take! Will we choose a path of growth and a path of being the best version of ourselves? 

In any case, it is important to listen to the surroundings, but only you honestly know who you are. It is imperative that we are honest with ourselves. You have to acknowledge you best as well as our weakest side. When we acknowledge and accept them only then we can grow.

Every day is an opportunity to grow. Every day there are new possibilities how to get one step closer to the goal. We are not meant to live our life in hiding, as a refugee of our own perception. We are here to live our lives as a Goddess's of our inner beauty that shine through and through!

Your responsibility is to create a better future for yourself! We both know it. And I know you can and WILL make it! Have a fantastic time growing!

Acceptance as a start of a better future?

Yesterday I read a post of a vegan, talking about people who eat meat, as the non-humans. It shocked me just how caught up in our own lives we are. In a way that is logical because, whose life are we going to life if not our own. But often we become so infatuated with it, that we can not see beyond our life. This quickly leads to a situation where we reject anything that is not excatly as we think it should be. It sounds tremendously over the top and excessive, but recently we have witnessed just that.

In recent years, there was a another phenomena. On one hand we do anything we can to be different, but at the same time we would do anything to belong. We want to belong and be part of something, anything, sometimes no price is too high. 

Recently, I noticed another phenomenon. How many people are trying to be "outside" compartments and groups, but just this incredible tendency to be "impossible to label", landed them in another "compartment". There is an on going fight against labeling and some are furiously trying to break stereotypes. All this fighting is rasing an interesting question. Not whether the stereotypes are where they should be or are they at least properly set, but for why are we so bothere by them? Why do we even care? Why not direct the energy we are waisting to fight labeling and stereotyps to shift and use it on ourselvs. Why not use it within? 

Incredible amounts of energy would be directed to where they should be in the first place. Once you understand yourself, who you are and what you are, then you don't care what others thing of you anyhow. All the labeling becomes just a game and is incredibly funny. 

Free yourself from it and so you can begin to perceive yourself as you are. ANd as a benefit you start to see others just the way they are! You stop condemning your fears and with that, you stop judging others and their choices in life. You are able to look at others and see them as they really are. 

What would happen if you would let yourself see yourself and others with all? With good, bad and the ugly? Are you able to see everyone as souls who were destined to be here and now? All God's children regardless of the shape and sharp words? 

When we are able to do that, we have no need to fear for the future!

The influence of grandmothers...

I was thinking about my grandparents. How much content they bring us, and how much we can learn from them. Just by being with them we learn the circle of life. Its cruelty and also the beauty and healthiness of life.

In my case the influence of grandmothers was almost epic. I am not overreacting. If I ever needed an inspiration or an idol I could always find it in my Grandmas. They were the most positive people I knew.. and that even before the positive "mode" was popular.

There was always laughing in the house of my mum's mum. When we were there on vacations ( that usually meant at least a month during the summer break), we were FREE! We got into all kinds of messes. We were playing hide and seek, we were racing bikes, we were the adventurers and were uncovering the mysteries of the chaotic attic, we were beating each other, stealing neighbours cherries (and also falling of of them...). But there was a rule: When the church bells would announce "Ave Marie" we had to come back from wherever we were. If the scars and beat up knees weren't too bad we could go out and play soccer, or play in the dark. Grandma's rule! She was never on our case and she makes the best mush ever! :)

But you have to grow up to truly understand her virtues and grandness of her influence. The women who has, even back then (in the 1940's), married under her own conditions. She decided when and with who. She stood up to her parents and left a huge farm that would provide richly for her and her family. She married a man she loved. She is a mother of 5, with a small farm. She grieved hard for a husband she loved and lost so young. But she got over it. A grandmother that always has a calming word and an open ear for her grandchildren. A grandma that is always glad to see you and takes nothing for granted. She knows what is important and has never lost the ability too see clearly and call it as it is. A role model...

I had a privilege to also know my fathers mother. A woman who firmly believed in family and hard work. She took care of family and build a family home alone after everything was destroyed in 2nd WW. Even when she was used and abandoned by her beloved ones she stayed strong. She believed that children are our future and that you have to work to survive. She also believed that the peace of mind shouldn't be gambled away with an easy money. She believed in God, tolerance and justice, but she was never naiive. A mother that held the family together with a soft hand. She never let the overbearing and raptorial men in her life, to poison her with greed and malice. A women that poved that you can keep pride and respect till the end. A role model...

I learned so much from them.. and I am still learning. Respect, trust, understanding. I never understood the stupidity of intergenerational hate. I was also always shocked by the violence toward grandparents. Taking care of our family members is a task we get at our birth! As they took care of us, we take care of them when they need us. 

Oh yes Grandmothers rock!